No, not Ulquiorra, it's deeper than that

You see, it's pretty frustrating that I don't have any avenue of penning my thoughts down for a while now. I guess that having a space like this can be beneficial, only if used appropriately.

Having a blog has its own implications, namely you tend to be overly-emotional, talk too much about your own private life etc. Exactly the things I had wanted to avoid in the past. Let's just pray I stick to it more religiously this time.

Economics is something I've always enjoyed, and it is also the very thing that I'm going to study in a couple of months time. Economics theories have always struck me as meaningful, such as this one that I'm going to elaborate on today. You know, the old saying goes: The rich gets richer. Well, I'm going to say that it doesn't only apply to the monetary aspect of life. I am going to go more extreme here for illustrating purposes, so don't mistaken this for being offensive and insensitive.

Let's put it for one moment that you are born good-looking. Naturally, superficial people would flock to you, and if you ever make it as a superstar, pray to you every night before they sleep. The point is that it has become WAY easier for you to find an ideal mate, especially if you are a girl. Face it guys, you're frucking horny and wouldn't give a fat ugly girl another glance unless she was so revolting you had to re-check if your eyes were failing you or if she was actually real. The same can be said for girls, yes we know that you don't particularly go for looks when you look for a boyfriend, but you can't stand a super heavyweight sumo wrestler too. As you can see, person A is already born good-looking, and he/she gets a better chance to hook up with someone of the same calibre(let us be superficial here for this moment), a.k.a the rich gets richer. I know, you're going to tell me I'm comparing things of different nature, but you get what I'm driving at.

Recently, I was asking a friend for her thoughts regarding the prospect of her getting involved with a for e.g. physically disabled person. To cut to the chase, the conclusion she gave me was that she wouldn't mind dating him, but if marriage was involved, then it is an entirely different question. Plainly, she puts it in chinese: 就是没有缘分吗! Basically, whether you are born in a certain manner or made a very bad decision, you aren't fated to be. You aren't fated to enjoy, you aren't fated to participate, and society generally throws pity at you but 'condemns' you beyond that. It is certainly true that marrying someone who is disabled is a very tough and life changing decision that most people would sneak out from, and you can't really blame anyone for that. However, in this story, only one person loses. No prizes for guessing who.

You would probably point out that if the person is disadvantaged because of the decisions he/she made, then they should pay for the consequences. No arguments against that, I fully agree. What I am talking about, though, is the things that cannot be controlled and aren't a part of poor decision making or immature behavior. I'm talking about things that leave you helpless, because you cannot do anything about it, and you weren't given a choice to be like that in the first place. There are plenty of things that fit these criteria, yet your comfortable fortunate state might not open your eyes to these cruelty. Secondly, you might say that there will be people who would do otherwise and care for those who are already disadvantaged before the game of life started. O you hear that ever so often, but in a world of an estimated population of 7 billion, how much can that handful of angels do?

So, how much of your life is determined before you were born? Depends really. On whether or not technology has created a solution for the inherent problems that bugged you into this world. If there isn't a solution, good luck. Adolescence is going to be a hard kick in the balls.

After all these negative thoughts, I probably sound like the me that got a D for GP.

Luckily, there is one parameter that evens everything out. Something that attempts, regardless how feebly, to make things fair. In economics, it kind of sounds like the second-best theory, whereby the deity tries to solve as many problems as possible by intervening with a general plan.

It is none other than time.

With a slice of fortune, the world was constructed with 2 things, time and space. The former is paramount. Intelligently, the entity which built the universe decided to make NOTHING last. How smart was that? Honestly, I wouldn't have thought of that if I built the world. Over time, everything is meaningless and pointless, only leaving memories that people fondly keep in their hearts, perhaps to justify their existence over the thousands of years that have passed. Even memories can't go all the way, they disappear upon death. Sure, some things get recorded and stay in the history books. However, personal memories which really mattered to the individual, follows the owner to the grave, for good. Love doesn't last, looks don't last, character can waver, and gratefully, so doesn't pain, suffering and mental anguish.

After we pass the age of 50, we would begin to bald, skin would start sagging, and many things we once held onto dearly would disintegrate in front of our eyes. Your spouse would just seem like a game that was overplayed, it doesn't bring you any adrenaline rushes anymore, you know every cheat code, every critical move and everything there is to know. The only use of money then seems to be on medical aid and on the prolonging of the life you can't end because some blessed soul decided that euthanasia should never be legalized just because he doesn't have to live life with only one leg and have cancer cells spreading rapidly through his body causing him endless excruciating pain. Only then, the world is equal.

Or at least more so.